Since the age of sixteen, the longest I’ve been single is six weeks, until now. It’s been four months and a handful of days since my last relationship ended and I made a conscious effort to stay single for a longer period of time than I normally would for two main reasons:
A. All of my friends comment on the fact that I don’t stay single for long and I’ve been told that I could just be overcommitting to relationships to soon.
B. I still have feelings for my last girlfriend and it wouldn’t be fair to any new girl for me to get heavily involved while that’s still the case.
But anyway, the point is that it’s taken some time but I think I’ve finally got it. It’s taken a long time really but I think I’ve figured out how to be on my own, how to be happy in my own company and not need someone around constantly. Maybe this’ll make me a better person or a worse person, only time will tell but I can tell you this, it definitely feels good now to be comfortable spending time on your own and to get to know who you are that little bit better.
It always has been and always will be. There is never going to be a better time than now. Plans are for the weak and procrastination is the sign of a dead man. Don’t spend time doing anything other than what you want to do and don’t spend time being anything other than what you want to be, this is all time you could have spend better.
I’m all about making the most of my time now, putting the most effort in and reaping the most reward possible. I’m not an idiot who says “This year is my year” every New Year’s Day but i am a firm believer in the power of the human mind and the strength of will that can turn people into heroes, legends and even gods.
No great man ever spent time in bed waiting for life to happen to him, they go out and they make it fucking happen. I will do everything it is physically possible to do and I will be everything it is physically possible to be, not for someone else but for myself and in spite of what anyone else does. The people that doubt you, cast you aside or forget about you will be the first ones to recognize you when you reach the top of the mountain, never forget that.
It sounds stupidly simple and easy to do but we all know it’s not.
Don’t just get angry and self-destructive though, that’s a common mistake. Get angry and use it, use it to build yourself into a better person than you ever were before. Better doesn’t necessarily mean good, you don’t have to be a good person to be a great person. If you ever need motivation to put yourself in a better situation just tell yourself that you don’t deserve it. You don’t deserve any of the endless mountain of shit that is everyday life for most people on the planet, but you’re going to get it anyway so get angry and move that fucking mountain.
Children let their emotions control them, adults learn to hide them and maybe even block them out entirely but only great people can harness them. Use every single ounce of rage in you to do everything you never thought was possible.
This message was brought to you by a lack of experience and an unrelenting hope for the future.
Sometimes I wake up and I can’t get the idea out of my head. I can’t stop wondering if I gave up and let the best thing that ever happened to me walk away without a fight. But I always come to the same conclusion, if it was the best thing that ever happened to me then why did I have to fight?
I’m not saying relationships should be easy, I know they’re not. It’s just that when you get to a point where loving someone isn’t enough any more, maybe that’s just supposed to be the end of it. I guess it’s something you’ll never really know for sure and that’s not an idea I like, uncertainty is not fun.
Regardless, It’s too late to change it back and you just have to man up and move on. It’s not easy and it’s probably never going to be, but it’s one of those things that everyone has to do at some point in their lives. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and be willing to accept your fate.
You drink to the future or drink because of the past. It all looks the same when you’re on the outside looking in.
I’ve just started watching Vikings and it struck me, you know a TV series is amazing when you need to go to the toilet and you end up taking your laptop with you to keep streaming it while you take a shit. That’s real gripping storytelling right there.