I’m currently doing revision for an exam in the morning on prejudice and discrimination and I’m going through research on desegregation when something astounding hit me.
Why is the original word segregation and the opposite desegregation? Why was the word that came first, the one to describe people being separated and alienated instead of the one to describe us living in peace?
It’s an awful realisation that our default setting is one of hostility with the urge to advance ourselves at the expense of others. Maybe we should try to stop that, don’t you think?
I’ve just started watching Vikings and it struck me, you know a TV series is amazing when you need to go to the toilet and you end up taking your laptop with you to keep streaming it while you take a shit. That’s real gripping storytelling right there.
I’m eating left over birthday cake and because it’s 3am I’m doing it in the dark while watching Community on my laptop which is all perfectly normal really except for the thought that just entered my head.
It was a single sentence that sounded so depressing it’s unbelievable.
“It’s so hard to eat birthday cake using only the light of a laptop.”
So this post’s going in both of the categories I’ve made because it does kind’ve apply to both.
I was baked last night and I was thinking about the night out for my birthday and some of the events of the last month or so and it really does seem like I’m attracted to drama. Not in the sense that I make a big deal of things, because I don’t, I’m really laid back. But I tend to make decisions or do things that I know full well could easily blow up in my face and cause a lot of hassle for me, without any real thought of the consequences. It seems like I need confrontation but only when i can shift the blame on the other person. I don’t cause any drama but I definitely seem to enjoy being caught up in it, it’s the only explanation I can think of for why I’m consistently attracted to paranoid and unstable girls with trust issues.
It then started to dawn on me that maybe this whole “Say yes more” is just another way of doing exactly that. Maybe I only want to do it because it means that I’ve got an excuse to do whatever I want and not have any of the repercussions being my fault.